I have a growing frustration that doesn't seem to want to go away. It seems everywhere I look there are those going about doing the things they feel God has for them to do. There are those who are walking out the vision, following the Spirit, filled with excitement, etc.etc.etc.

I was there. Walking out the vision, following the Spirit, filled with excitement, etc.etc.etc.

However, at this moment - and it has been a very long moment - I have not been able to see the things that I saw before, to do the things I did before, to be filled with the excitement I had before. This has caused great turmoil in me and great distress. Am I backsliding? Am I tired and weary of it all, am I not hearing, not getting down to it, in rebellion, lazy? My constant cries and appeals to God seem to not be hitting the mark as it were, and I am left wondering what is wrong with me.

It really is a feeling of being put on the shelf. Of feeling maybe I'm past it, not part of the emerging move, lost my niche, lost my place, lost my groove. Oh boo-hoo.

I was at a worship service last week. It was a great time of worship and God's presence filled the room. Yes, a great place to be. I worshipped but the thoughts were still there. Why am I not part of something like this. Then He spoke.

He gave me the verse from Acts, when Jesus told His disciples to “Wait for the Holy Spirit.”

Now you may be saying, I'm already filled with the Holy Spirit. Absolutely. But I felt that the Father was saying that there is a new thing He wants to do. There is more about to be given if we who are feeling this way, will wait for the Holy Spirit.

Jesus was crucified. He rose again and He told His disciples to wait until the Spirit was given. There are things in us to which God wants us to die (could that be a whole lot of self?). He wants to resurrect something (a new thing that He is doing in each one of us that will honour and glorify Him), and He wants to breathe and release the Holy Spirit in us, with fresh strength and power to get the job done.

You might feel like you're on the shelf at the moment. But take it as a gift of time that the Lord is giving you to rest in Him, worship Him, seek Him and be refreshed and renewed for the next phase that is coming soon. Wait for the Holy Spirit.

I say again. Wait for the Holy Spirit.